And why I hope to not do it again anytime soon
Something that immovable, is, by definition, unable to be moved, so late one day when I was busy being busy, I ran my toe into this corner:
I was quickly and unceremoniously reminded that you can’t just kick a wall (or even part of one) out of your way and that not everything can be overcome by the exercise of “mind over matter.”
Sometimes you encounter a force that literally stops you in your tracks and requires you to reconsider your situation. In this moment, there is no “just doing it,” and there is no “putting your mind to it.” The force — whatever it is — stops you, and plowing forward is no longer an option. Instead you need to your best with the options you do have instead of spending time trying to carry on as if nothing has happened.
First things first
With three sons and over thirty-five years of motherhood under my belt, I knew that the first order of business was to get to the freezer. Over the years I had learned that the sooner I could get something cold on a bruise to be, the shorter the recuperation, so as soon as I was able, I hobbled to the freezer and pulled out an unopened bag of peas that I put on the affected area.
Then, sitting with my foot elevated, I scoured the internet for some new quick fix for what I had just done, and I could find nothing. Just the same old same instructions to ice the affected area, elevate it, rest it, and take an over-the-counter analgesic if the area was swollen.
Time combined with rest, it seemed, was going to be the most effective thing to heal my foot, so then, instead of figuring out how I would do the things I could no longer do, I started to think about the things I could do.
Time to get stuff done
I have a lot of “reasons” I don’t get things done. One of my top reasons is that I don’t have enough time.
With my foot having put me out of commission for a few days, I suddenly had a lot more time to do those things that I don’t usually think I have time for.
The list of things I could do included:
- Read a soon-to-be overdue library book
- Write any one of a number of unwritten crochet patterns
- Crochet a granny square baby blanket for the granddaughter of a friend from third grade
The hardest part of sitting with my foot elevated was not allowing myself to indulge in “what might have beens,” that is thinking about the things I could have done differently leading up to the moment of impact. I needed a new plan because self-loathing and self-incrimination are also self-indulgent. It presumes that the most important thing on your to do list is to hate yourself, and while I may have been stopped by a corner to my toe, the world was still revolving around its axis. The sun was still rising, the sun was still setting, and my dog still wanted a walk.
My side patio
For most of my recuperation period I set myself up on the side patio of the house where I live.
It gets ample afternoon shade, has a great view of the eastern skyscape of Albuquerque, and it is within easy walking distance of the freezer inside the house, so when it was time to swap out bags of frozen peas, I didn’t have to hobble too far.
So what lessons did I learn?
1: A lot of things I think need to be done-right-now can actually wait a few days.
2: My life would be a lot easier if I would just do the things I think can wait a few days instead of waiting until I hit my foot and can’t move around to do them.
3: See 1 & 2: My priorities could use a little work
4: If you can fit sitting around with your foot elevated into your schedule when you hit said foot on something, it will heal more quickly.
I don’t like to be reminded that I’m not as essential as I imagine I am, but the business of running my foot into an immovable object did exactly that. So when I am planning my future daily schedule, I am going to try to remember to do at least one thing every single day that I really like, because I honestly never know when circumstances just might stop me in my tracks.